Showing posts with label Dharma Punx. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dharma Punx. Show all posts

Saturday, October 4, 2025

Punk in the Park, Los Angeles (10/4-5)


Punk Buddhism? Brad Warner's Hardcore Zen
(Brad Warner explains the connection between punk rock and Zen Buddhism)

Hardcore Zen (Wisdom Pubs)
(Stash - Free Documentaries) This documentary is about controversial Ohio American punk "Zen Master" Brad Warner (former Zero Defex 0DFX bass player), who has sought to strip the sheen off many taboo topics in Zen Buddhism and exhibit a healthy dose of reality to his readers. For more info on this film: imdb.com/title/tt3057770Stars: Brad Warner, Randy Blythe, Nina Hartley, Pirooz Kalayeh. Directed by Pirooz Kalayeh.

Brad's band Zero Defex (0DFX) in action



PUNK IN THE PARK

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Punk Festival | Punk in the Park | San Pedro, CA
Punk in the Park, North America’s premier outdoor punk rock and craft festival, returns to Southern California this Saturday, Oct. 4th and Sunday, Oct. 5th for two epic days of punk rock at the edge of the Pacific Ocean.

Punk in the Park Los Angeles takes over Berth 46 at the Port of Los Angeles in San Pedro with 40+ bands on 3 stages, along with a Craft Festival, Punk Rock Swap Meet, and Vinyl Village.


​ Punk in the Park Los Angeles features headlining performances from Bad Religion and Pennywise (Saturday), Descendents and The Interrupters (Sunday), along with:
  • Face To Face
  • Screeching Weasel
  • The Adicts
  • Stiff Little Fingers
  • Street Dogs
  • Comeback Kid
  • The Bronx
  • The Casualties
  • Michael McColgan & The Bomb Squad
  • T.S.O.L.
  • Adolescents
  • Agent Orange
  • Manic Hispanic
  • Dead To Me
  • Teenage Bottlerocket
  • Authority Zero
  • The Bombpops
  • Dwarves
  • The Aggrolites
  • The Queers

EVENT DETAILS ​
  • Dates: Saturday, Oct. 4th & Sunday, Oct. 5th, 2025
  • Doors open: Noon (12:00 pm)
  • Location: Berth 46, 3011 Miner St., San Pedro, CA 90731
TICKETS WEEKEND PASSES (2 DAYS)
  • General Admission tickets start at: $149.99 + fees
  • VIP tickets start at: $279.99 + fees
  • San Pedro, Los Angeles, California
  • Oct. 4th and 5th, 2025 | Berth 46
All tickets provide access to music performances and the option for craft tasting as a $15 add-on purchase for 21+. VIP tickets include access to all GA areas plus commemorative VIP laminate, dedicated festival VIP entrance lanes, dedicated VIP main stage viewing area, access to VIP lounge with seating, dedicated food, and VIP bars.

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Friday, May 30, 2025

Punk Rock in SLC (film) and Kalama Sutta


Punk rock made sense to rebels
SLC Punk!
is an American comedy-drama film written and directed by James Merendino. The film centers around Steven "Stevo" Levy, a college graduate and punk living in Salt Lake City during the mid-1980s. SLC Punk!, which was released in 1998, was chosen as the opening-night feature at the 1999 Sundance Film Festival [2]. Merendino created the film based on his experience growing up in Mormon-heavy Salt Lake City. Although the film is not autobiographical, Merendino has said that many characters were based on people he knew [3]. More

What's so punk about Buddhism? Well, it is anti-authoritarian, into direct experience rather than intermediary priests. It is about questioning and going "against the stream." Just ask punk Buddhist Noah Levine, his Buddhist dad Stephen Levine, or his long-time teacher Jack Kornfield.

[Mormon] Jesus saves? Buddhism is all lies? - Are you envious of lay people, and do you regret?
Western monk explains his choice of Theravada. - How can we know and be sure? Bodhi

Not until I was sure did I claim to know and see.
It is so sad to hear this last man's words. The same accusations were hurled at the Buddha in his day by Brahmins and doubters. While it may sound reasonable to us as we assume, it is completely wrong. The Buddha DID NOT follow his own thinking or take a "best guess" and the meaning of life. It was about awakening to the Truth he could never have imagined. It has so little to do with "thinking" and so much to do with directly experiencing. But he did not stop there. He verified again and again and taught a path of verification and purification. Buddhism is not a belief system, as much as people try to treat it that way or make a "religion" out of it. It is a path-of-practice, a set of instructions. One must practice (walk) the path to verify it for oneself. There is nothing to believe or accept on blind faith. There is everything to investigate and see for oneself. What is the most "punk" sutra? That would have to be the Kalama Sutta, the Buddha's invitation to self-inquiry. "Don't believe anything I say just because I say it -- or even that of your teachers or books or traditions. But you yourselves must know and see" is the gist of what the Buddha is saying to the Kalamas, a group of people who rightly doubted him as "just another teacher about to exalt himself and condemn others." The Buddha shocked them when he didn't do that but still managed to teach them the Dharma.

How can anyone know anything?
The Buddha gives a standard: Start from what you
already know to be true from your own experience.
In the Kalama Sutta the Buddha lists the criteria by which any sensible person can decide what to accept as true or not: Do not blindly believe religious teachings, he tells the Kalamas, just because they are claimed to be true, or even through the application of various methods or techniques.

Direct knowledge grounded in one's own experience can be called upon [as the deciding factor]. The Buddha advises that the words of the wise should be heeded and taken into account, but he does not propose passive acceptance.

Rather, the Buddha promotes constant questioning and personal testing to identify truths that verifiably reduce one's own disappointment, suffering, and misery (dukkha) and that of others.

The Kalama Sutta (also called the Kesamutti Sutta) states [3]:
  • Do not go on what has been acquired by repeated hearing (anussava), nor upon tradition (paramparā), nor upon rumor (itikirā), nor upon what is written in scriptures (piṭaka-sampadāna), nor upon surmising (takka-hetu), nor upon axioms (naya-hetu)... More

Wednesday, November 2, 2022

History of Punk Rock: From US to UK?


Punk: Born in the US, thrived in the UK? | History of Punk
(Amplified - Music & Pop Culture Documentaries) Oct. 25, 2022. Punk: Attitude is a documentary on the history of punk rock in the U.Ss and U.K. The film traces the different styles of punk from their roots to 1970s' London scene and into the hardcore present. Interviews with many of the musicians are edited with live clips and historical footage.

Orange County, California small time hardcore with China White

Watch the full documentary here. Content licensed from Espresso. Any queries, please contact: owned-enquiries@littledotstudios.com. Want to watch more pop culture documentaries? Click here. #punk #punkrock #kingsroad

Sunday, May 29, 2022

The Crackpipe Monk (Dharma Outreach)

Drugs are like candy...can't have just one. Put down the pipe and get on the train? I'dunno.

(Dharma Nomad Gangster, May 25, 2022) Dharma Outreach with Ajahn Sujato a.k.a. Ven. Graham and Marshall (dharmaoutreach.com, Facebook Profile, Facebook Group). Dharma Talk #1.
Imagine the infamous Noah Levine (recovering American drug addict and author of Dharma Punx/Against the Stream plus founder of a for-profit recovery center in Hollywood, sued out of his position as any kind of Dharma leader but still hustling to have a center). Now imagine him as a monk who has not committed sexual misconduct crimes or harmed many people around him, all full of tattoos and a shiny bald head. What is left is a kind of Ajahn Sujato (not the Australian Buddhist translator formerly known as Anthony Best of SuttaCentral.net fame) or Graham with his thick accent and scruffy appearance. Ten years a Theravada monk in the Thai tradition makes him a thera or "elder." So bravo that he survived parajika ("defeat") free, clean, having overcome drugs like crack! Home of The New Day Sangha| Dharma Outreach

Tuesday, September 3, 2019

Recovery Dharma: Buddhist 12 Steps

Transition Team (recoverydharma.org); Seth Auberon, Crystal Q. (eds.), Wisdom Quarterly

Recovery Dharma book now available
Recovery Dharma is a peer-led, grass-roots, democratically-structured organization. Its mission is to support individuals on their path of recovery from addiction using Buddhist practices and principles.

They believe that traditional Buddhist teachings, often referred to as "the Dharma," offer a powerful approach to healing from addiction and living a life of true freedom.

The program is based on the idea that everyone is his or her own guide in recovery from addiction, with the help and understanding of wise friends and community (sangha).

The belief is that this is what the Dharma teaches. So it’s with great joy and excitement that all come together to build a recovery community and support structure, informed by the spirit of democracy.

The belief is that the organization should focus on providing resources to local sanghas who wish to use Buddhist practices and principles for recovery. Each of us must determine our path and practice for ourselves with the support of both local and global communities.

There are many texts and teachers in the Buddhist tradition and many opportunities to learn.

Recovery Dharma is based on the idea of choice: Groups and individuals within groups should be encouraged to explore, learn, and understand by following their own path to take care of their own needs.

It accepts and honors the fact that there are many possible roads to the wise understanding and effort that are part of this practice. Recovery Dharma is here to support this exploration, not to limit it.

The ideals, aims, and structure of this organization will be decided by the community itself.

Although a Transition Team has been formed to allow us to incorporate and obtain nonprofit status, one of the first tasks of the new organization will be to support the democratic elections of a Board of Directors that represents the diversity and breadth of the membership. More

As a community, everyone involved will define the scope and nature of this new organization’s mission. What YOU CAN DO now:

Tuesday, July 16, 2019

Noah Levine lawsuit resolved

Recovery Dharma (refugerecovery.org); Seth Auberon, Ashley Wells (eds.), Wisdom Quarterly

A message from the Recovery Dharma transition team.

Dear Sangha (Community),

This program, like our recovery, is ours. And to shape it, we’ll need to use as much wisdom, caring, and effort as each of us brings to our own recovery. Recovery Dharma is based on the idea that every one of us is our own guide in recovery, with the help and understanding of our wise friends and sangha.

We believe that’s what the Dharma teaches us. So it’s with joy that we extend an invitation to join together to develop our shared path, and to embrace the excitement of creating a truly grass-roots organization to support it.

As most of you may be aware, the Refuge Recovery Board of Directors and Noah Levine have agreed to settle the Board’s lawsuit and Noah’s counterclaims.

There was no “victory.” We all just decided it was time to move forward and let each individual and each group decide for itself what direction to take

In the wake of the settlement agreement, a new non-profit has been founded to ensure continued support for our community. We have tentatively named this new movement Recovery Dharma.

We believe that the non-profit should focus on providing support to local sanghas who wish to use Buddhist practices and principles for recovery. We believe it should be a grass-roots organization, governed democratically. We believe that each of us must determine our path and practice for ourselves with the support of both local and global communities. There are many teachers in the Buddhist tradition, and many opportunities to learn.

Recovery Dharma is based on the idea of choice: that groups and individuals within those groups should be encouraged to explore, to learn, and to understand, according to their own path and their own needs.  We accept and honor the fact that there are multiple teachers and texts that can lead to the wise understanding and effort that are part of this practice. We are here to support that exploration, not to limit it.

The ideals, aims, and structure of this organization will be decided by the community itself. Even the name and the logo are intended as placeholders, to be confirmed or changed by the collective will of the membership.

Although a transition team has been formed to allow us to incorporate and obtain nonprofit status, one of the first tasks of the new organization will be to elect a board of directors that represents the diversity and breadth of our membership. As a community, we must also define the scope and nature of the new organization’s mission.

We are working on a survey to be provided to the community in the coming days that will ensure a collective vision. Elections for board members will take place in the next few months. Once the new board is in place, they will work in tandem with the community to build the infrastructure necessary to support our growing membership.

To support a deeper exploration of how Buddhist practices can support our recovery, Recovery Dharma is making available a newly created book, developed by members of our community, that can be used to supplement or replace any that is currently used in your local meetings. This book provides a Buddhist lens on approaching recovery, including a practical roadmap with recommended tools and techniques to support people along the path of recovery.

A draft version is currently available for download in PDF and ebook formats for the community to review. After the text is finalized, bound copies will be available by print-on-demand for purchase.

All literature created through Recovery Dharma will be released under Creative Commons licenses and the PDF and ebook will always be available for free or by donation for anyone who needs it. All proceeds will go to the organization to support the communities we serve.

Community resources that were on the Refuge Recovery website will also be posted to the new website. We encourage individual Recovery Dharma sanghas to use whatever literature they decide will best aid them in understanding and practicing not only recovery, but also the Dharma.

This is a new journey for all of us, and one we begin with hope and compassion as well as excitement about the opportunity to form a truly grass-roots organization.

We each have a chance—and perhaps a responsibility—to examine our own practice and recovery to see what best supports those parts of our lives. We sincerely hope that Recovery Dharma will be a valuable resource for each of you on that path. We put our trust in the collective wisdom of our sanghas and the integrity of our shared practice.

What you can do now:
We will be holding informational calls, open to all those interested, in the coming week. Please feel free to join us on Tuesday, July 16 at 8pm Eastern Time or Thursday, July 18 at 7pm Pacific Time.

https://zoom.us/j/772208428
        +1 646 558 8656 US (New York)
        +1 669 900 6833 US (California)
Meeting ID: 772 208 428
Find your local number: https://zoom.us/u/ad74FQYypl

We wish to communicate our profound caring and respect to everyone in the extended sangha of Buddhist recovery, regardless of whether they choose to affiliate with us or not. May all of us be well, may we all be at ease, and may each of us be supported on our path, no one left out.

— The Recovery Dharma transition team:
  • Paul Acciavatti
  • Madalyn Baker
  • Amy Reed
  • Jean Tuller
  • Don Westervelt
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Portland, OR 97213-1305


Tuesday, January 29, 2019

Noah Levine to world: FTW and PMA

Disgraced ex-leader of Against the Stream and accused sexual harasser Noah Levine (RR)
Dear fellow members of the Refuge Recovery community,

Now for the "bad" news. While I was on a voluntary and temporary leave of absence from the non-profit board of directors, after the false allegations against me last year, which I assume most of you know about, the board eliminated my position as President and began to take a series of actions that I see as contrary to the founding vision of our movement. As reflected in the official minutes of meetings, the board made efforts to "take ownership" of the Refuge Recovery trademarks. This culminated in a publicly announced statement on January 16 that "the Board has directed our organization's counsel to prepare and file the legal complaint necessary to commence a civil suit against Noah in court."


The RR board's actions also have included the following: --
  • Further disseminating the false allegations against me;
  • -- Silencing opposition to, and questioning of, the board's actions, including the deletion of comments asking why the board has chosen to use funds raised from community members to devote to a court battle;
  • -- Putting forward and promoting unqualified teachers and/or facilitators or leaders; and
  • -- Taking the Refuge Recovery movement in a direction that conceivably could threaten the recovery of addicts, including a departure from the original RR vision, as stated in the Refuge Recovery book, to organize professional Refuge Recovery treatment centers and meditation retreats led by qualified teachers.
Sadly, the board has placed me and all of us in a position where the board's disagreements with me now will be resolved by a judge in the court system. ...

[THIS POORLY WRITTEN LETTER BEGINS:]
Our t-shirts can say it all for us.
Many of you know that as the founder of the Refuge Recovery movement, and author of the Refuge Recovery book published in 2014, I have spent ten years working to build this program. I am tremendously grateful that our Refuge Recovery movement continues to grow, to the point where there are nearly 700 weekly meetings now, across the United States and around the world. All of my efforts as a speaker, writer, organizer, leader, counselor, and meditation teacher have been, and continue to be, committed to our astoundingly successful Refuge Recovery program. With facilitators I trained, and to whom we are all immensely in debt, this program and movement really started in 2008, nine years before I founded the non- profit organization also known as Refuge Recovery in 2017.

I have felt, and continue to feel, a great responsibility to provide a focused program of recovery, based on Buddhist principles and organized around the Refuge Recovery book, with a consistent meeting format. I founded the Refuge Recovery non-profit group to support independent Refuge Recovery meetings and a democratic local and regional infrastructure. Finally, consistent with the original vision as stated in the book, I have worked to develop a professional RR treatment program and a Refuge Recovery retreat organization, with trained and empowered (i.e., qualified) Refuge Recovery teachers. This has been a major undertaking, and we have made a considerable progress since the book came out in 2014, when we had only a handful of Refuge Recovery meetings.

Before founding the non-profit group, I secured the trademark rights to the Refuge Recovery name, to protect against use of our name in any way that would be inconsistent with the original vision for our program.

To remove any possible misunderstanding about this, I now am officially granting, on behalf of the trademark owner, Refuge Recovery House, and through this statement, a license to all of you to continue to use the Refuge Recovery name and logo for the purposes of your local meetings, local websites, and local social media accounts, consistent with the vision and program articulated in the Refuge Recovery book. This is a "no-brainer," because obviously I have no dispute with any of you!...

I do agree that Refuge Recovery needs a long-term asset sharing agreement between myself and an RR Board for use of the trademarks. I understand this as well as anyone. I agreed to begin the process of creating such an agreement with the current RR board. But after I voluntarily withdrew from running the non-profit organization, the executive committee of the board moved from engaging in negotiations to simply making demands. If I were to sign an agreement such as the one they have insisted upon, it would put complete control over the direction of the RR organization and movement in the hands of people who have demonstrated over the last nine months that they do not respect or understand the original vision of Refuge Recovery. I cannot agree to allow the current board to have sole control over infrastructure creation, retreats, events, teachers, additional RR literature etc.; without input from myself, as the founder, and without a structure in place for real democratic input from the community, whom the board are freezing out from the decision-making process.

The current board's actions demonstrate a disregard for the long-term stability of Refuge Recovery and have put the continued existence and financial viability of our community at risk.

I ask for your understanding and your patience while we these differences are resolved. I believe the best solution to our current instability is to reorganize. I will be working with some of the original RR members as well as other members of RR with many years of experience in recovery service.

Together, we will seek to reorganize the non-profit group and return our organization to the focused and democratic vision we have been working towards since 2013. That's the good news!

Love and metta to you all,

Noah Levine

Friday, November 16, 2018

Some thoughts on Buddhism and activism

Amy Reed (Voices from the Sangha), Refuge Recovery Asheville, North Carolina; Seth Auberon, Pfc. Sandoval, Sayalay Aloka (eds.), Wisdom Quarterly

F da po-po? Love thy enemy?
I am by no means an expert on Buddhism, but one thing I have come to understand is that the Buddha was a revolutionary, both spiritually and politically.

At a time when it was unthinkable, he welcomed the untouchable caste into his sangha. He ordained women as monastics (but -- we are told -- only after they shaved their heads and marched a 100 miles on bloody bare feet in protest, because those original nuns/bhikkhunis were badass).

It is right to question authority (Kalama Sutra)
His teachings were about questioning dogma and the [Brahmin's] establishment, yet his sangha did not isolate and tune out, did not close itself off from the suffering of the world. They were in the streets; they were teaching the way of compassion to all who would listen; they were advising kings. They were involved.

Compassion is not only something I do when I’m meditating. I can cultivate wise intentions and wholesome thoughts while I sit. I can send metta or loving kindness to abstract strangers around the world, but that is only part of my practice.

There is also right action (karma). There is the action of compassion. What does it mean to act wisely in this world that is experiencing so much suffering? How do I show up for others and for myself?

AMY REED is a writer, mother, and current treasurer for the very spirited Refuge Community in Asheville, NC. She got sober nine years ago in Oakland, California, where 12-steps and a little dabbling in Buddhism was just what she needed. After moving to the South in 2014, her recovery and spiritual paths have found a new home in Refuge Recovery.

Friday, August 31, 2018

Noah Levine: Sex fiend still in denial?

Seth Auberon, Ashley Wells, Crystal Quintero, Sheldon S., CC Liu (eds.), Wisdom Quarterly

Guilty of poor judgment, more or less innocent of major crimes and misdemeanors.
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I didn't know white privilege was a thing!
Dharma Punx/Against the Stream/Refuge Recovery Founder Noah Levine is still using his privilege to get his message out when we do not hear from his victims and accusers. Here is his latest round of excuses, in his own words, after being found GUILTY of all charges enough to cause the destruction of Against the Stream. Refuge Recovery, Inc. will continue with Levine as leader.

[Personally, we think maybe other people should cut the guy a break, but not us. We'd rather be hard on him because for a guy to shoot his mouth off with all of these PC phrases and uber sensitive yada yada to then go and harm people, even if only in their own imaginations, possibly including sexual assault and nonconsensual sex, it does not ring true to us that he did not know what he was doing. Who cares? Not us, but we don't like it and therefore do not cotton to Levine. He deserves much praise for bringing Buddhism to recovery, which Kevin Griffin has also done. Many punks and others have surely benefited. One of his teachers is the great Jack Kornfield, so that says something for him, and his father was the Buddhist writer Stephen Levine. He was running a big money business, and business at Refuge Recovery, Inc. seems better than ever. So how much has this sex scandal really harmed him in the age of #metoo and #timesup? Harvey Weinstein would be relieved that one can be found culpable (not really "guilty" since there seem to be no legal charges/consequences* or big pay out settlements that we are being told about) in spite of multiple accusers. Way to go, Levine. Here is more of his excuse making in his own words, and we suggest he almost certainly had lots of help crafting this and editing it to not put his foot in his mouth because his grammar is very poor and all of his books go through massive editing and re-editing to make them readable, even if many mistakes still slip by his helpers.]
  • UPDATE: According to a Refuge Recovery facilitator at the La Maida Institute and former friend of Levine's, there are legal charges pending, and lawyers did censor/rewrite this letter, which has left no one feeling any better. They must keep him from admitting any guilt or apologizing for anythingIt has only upset them as he continues to follow the Circle Jerks' advice to us all to "deny everything" when accused.
Open letter to the communities of Refuge Recovery and Against the Stream Buddhist Meditation Society.

Um, lemme see, how should I put this?
This is a complicated letter to write because I am essentially writing three groups of people in one open letter. I have a completely different perspective of my experiences with each of you individually and as groups of people. I’m going to approach this with compassion, willingness to listen and attempt to make sense of what is a layered, messy, painful situation.

I'm a kewl spiritual punker. Look at my tats!
I feel that it’s important for everyone to know that none of this had anything to do with students of ATS or members of Refuge Recovery. These were issues that came from my personal life.

I take full responsibility for anything that I have actually done. And will continue to be honest and cooperative with the process and anyone seeking the truth. That said, I will likewise also continue to tell the truth about what never happened, such as the accusation that I assaulted someone.

[To my victims]
To the women [I bothered] who have come forward and expressed a sense of suffering because of interpersonal [nonconsensual or consensual sexual] experiences with me, I am sorry I caused you harm and I ask your forgiveness. I wanted to connect and to explore a relationship. This has been a deeply painful learning experience. I want to take full responsibility for any harm I caused to anyone and everyone with whom I have had a dating relationship. [I'm not actually going to take "full responsibility," BUT I want to. It sounds like lying and hedging to us.] I want to make amends for my behavior if it didn’t feel good to them. [I'm not going to make amends, but I want to.] I don’t want to defend or minimize. [I don't want to defend or minimize, BUT I'm going to defend and minimize. Does anyone else see a pattern here? We need to get Dr. Deborah King on the case here to see if Levine is lying.] It is important to me that any woman who felt harmed, now feels heard. [Who talks like this? Lawyers and PR firms, that's who.] I want to understand. [I don't understand.] It matters. [But not to me.] I was shocked to hear (months later) [because I'm so insensitive I could not possibly read the nonverbal cues.] that someone was unhappy in any way with our [sexual] interactions. I was not aware at the time that anything was amiss with how we connected. [A guy so real, hard, and gritty uses "amiss"? Or was that a lawyer's suggestion after reading a thesaurus?] Whenever a boundary was stated – physical, emotional, or otherwise - I always honored it. [Always. See, this is that PC language at work.]

This is part of the learning for me in all of this - that just because someone doesn’t say “No” or express displeasure at the time, doesn’t always mean they are happy about it. I can also see that I wasn’t taking into account my power/privilege and status as a dharma teacher in my personal dating life. Perhaps I’ve had some denial or dismissive tendencies around my role as the founder of these two communities (ATS and RR). This has been a very painful way to wake up to the reality of who I am and how I’m seen by others.

For my communities, my heart breaks that intimate experiences from my personal life have caused a ripple effect that has made our community fragment. I can’t explain to you the depth of my sadness as I think of each of you and what has come to be a community trauma. I am especially sensitive to the needs of the recovery community and I encourage you to lean on each other. Against the Stream may not exist in name, but the community still exists in each other. Refuge Recovery meetings are a peer-led process, support each-other and continue the necessary work of your own healing and recovery. In moments like this we must remember even more to take refuge in the Buddha, Dharma, and Sangha.

[To the backstabbers I trusted]
I don't need you guys. I have other friends!
For my colleagues, I feel betrayed and abandoned. You were my family. We taught compassion and forgiveness together. I feel you did the opposite. You silenced me. You isolated me. You did not give me the benefit of the doubt, and you offered me no path to forgiveness and healing.

As a community we face the painful reality of all that has taken place and we now have the task of beginning the process of grieving the losses, navigating the changes and rebuilding the trust and connection that we once had. I have every intention of carrying on with my calling and mission, that is to practice the Dharma, to embody wisdom and compassion as best I can and to share the teachings of the Buddha with all who are interested to receive it.

Many are stepping back from Levine.
I will continue my work at Refuge Recovery Treatment Centers providing addiction treatment to suffering addicts as well as teaching my weekly meditation group at our new location in Venice. I will also be offering residential retreats through my friends at Rebel Saints Meditation Society. For now it looks like all of the other organizations and retreat centers that I have been teaching at for the past many years will cancel my events out of fear of the criticism they will receive if they continue to have me as faculty.

Oy vey, what a cliche!
I am continuing to process all of this with my psychotherapist who specializes in Sexuality, and staying in contact with some of my Buddhist teachers.

I will end with my meditation phrase-

Please forgive me for any harm I have caused, intentionally or unintentionally.

Noah Levine