Showing posts with label masculinity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label masculinity. Show all posts

Sunday, June 21, 2026

Father's Day: What if I HATE my dad?


Singalong, Everyone! Because I'm sure I'm the only one, right?
(Trafalgar) Falsettos' "Everyone Hates His Parents" (lyric video)

My Dad's a "Mad Man" (D.R.I.)
"My Old Man's a Fatso"

Eventually, Sid (age 29) spoke up for himself.
Prince Siddhartha Gautama (who became the Buddha at 35) had a dad, not Mr. Gautama. (Surnames came from mother Queen Maya Gautama). His father was King Suddhodana, a very proud, caring even doting father, who had to seem like a jerk to young Sid, always giving him everything he wanted but shielding him from seeing the truth about the world at every turn. His motive? Suddhodana had to keep Sid homebound so he could take over the family business when the time came. It didn't matter that that wasn't what Sid wanted: Your future has been decided for you.

Hey, Beavis, we become our Dads, huh huh huh.
In America, we hate our dads, I guess, until we become our dads. Then we hate ourselves and drink beer, wondering, "Did Dad hate himself? And did his dad hate himself? And is this trap sprung on everyone even in the 'richest country in the world'? This is as good as it gets? This is the best?!"


O, Buddha, I think Bart hates Homer. - Warn him
But what kind of karma (deed, action, conduct) is that, and what will be the result? According to the Buddha, our parents provide a massive and tremendous opportunity for merit (good karma). The only people who provide more are the noble ones (those well-behaved people along the stages of enlightenment). But our parents also have a hidden danger for us, massive and tremendous risk of bad karma for their neglect, mistreatment, abuse.

Jewish boy kills parents (Rob Reiner)
(It's strange because the same two people, if disrespected or harmed by others, wouldn't be such weighty karma as if we did it. It would still be bad, but when it's our own father or mother, or people who raised us like a mother or father, it is VERY weighty. It is so weighty that the Buddha pointed out Five Heinous Karmic Crimes, two of which are matricide and parricide).

How WE treat -- feel, think, talk, and do towards them -- matters a great deal. It matters so much that once a boy really wanted to see the Buddha in the flesh, so he traveled a long way and finally met him, and the Buddha asked him, "Why do you need to see me when you have two Buddhas at home?" (This would suggest that anything he might gain from the Buddha, say in terms of the karma of honoring him in person, he could gain from his parents).
Mom and Dad really pissed me off.
Ultimately, it becomes what WE do, not what parents do or did. There will be no excuse for our intentional actions towards them -- or anybody, but especially them. That's how special parents are.

If a snarling animal were to come at us and we killed it, that would be the terrible karma of killing. "But," we'll say, "it was going to kill us, or harm us, or it was scaring us by snarling! So that shouldn't be bad karma; I should get a freebie on that one."

Now, think about it for a moment. If even a snarling savage wild crazed rabid animal were coming at us, snarling and looking ready to bite, and we killed it THAT would be bad karma with suffering for us as the result, how much more for a father, mother, or stepparent -- who came at us providing life, food, shelter, assistance, learning, and so much more?
  • I slapped this on my Dad's car so he'd know.
    Sure, of course, we don't remember that. We weren't aware and don't now remember when we were infants puking on our dads and moms or parental figures. How we pooped, got sick, were helpless, needed things, got housed, got fed, got cared for, got loved... Sure, we'll say, "Nah, dawg, you don't know my dad [or Mom or whoever]!" And we can tell stories about how bad he was (or they were), how much he drank and yelled and restricted and punished and threatened and spanked or punched or worse. Blah, blah, blah. It's true. It's understandable.
  • But it's not going to matter. It is NOT going to make it neutral karma, and it sure isn't good karma. "But, but...but I was ill-equipped to handle it. No one taught me any other way! I blame my dad, stupid jerk, for not teaching me better! HE made me do it! I treat him like he treated me at the worst of times (because I've forgotten the best of times when he was doing so much for me that I don't count or never knew about)."
How punks D.R.I. see "Karma"
D.R.I. somehow learned about "Karma" and sang about it

LYRICS "Karma": Hey, Punk, with that bottle in your hand/ What makes you so sad? Could life really be that bad?/ Sure, you've got your reasons/ But your alibis are lies/ The story is an old one/ It's been told a million times/ You were glad to be alive/ On life's journey/ You were excited/ But you were not in a hurry/ For years, you walked up and down each road/ You had to try them all/ Looking for your place, I guess/ Where you could rest and feel at home/ Now, tired of walking/ You've started to run/ Passing everything by/ But at least you're having fun/ Good karma, bad karma/ You'll get what you deserve/ There is good and evil/ You've got a lot to learn/ There is love, there is hate/ You can't do as you please/ Wash your face, take a bath/ Your aura's still filthy/ In someone's bathroom, turning blue, puking green/ You're senile, senile at seventeen/ Scars on your brain from drinking beer and smoking weed/ Another acid tab, another shot of speed/ Good karma, bad karma/ You'll get what you deserve/ There is good and evil/ You've got a lot to learn/ There's no lie, only truth/ In reality/ You hate love, you love to hate/ Your soul is so diseased/ You are just a fish in a sea of human beings/ Lost in, caught up in, someone else's dream/ Afraid to laugh 'cause you might drown/ The true mad, sad clown sinking down/ Into the darkness where no one/ Would dare venture to save you
  • I don't deserve what happens to me!
    "Karma's a b*tch," that's the saying. What does it mean? It means karma can be. How is "karma" defined in the West? "What comes around goes around." And what does that saying mean? That means what we send upstream will be coming downstream, what we put out comes back, what we throw out there sooner or later lands on our heads. When we put out something in the wind, it will eventually be hitting us right in the face. So if we spit or pee or poop, ooh, that's going to be a "b*tch" all right. But what if we were to waft fragrant flower petals before us, or wondrous incense smoke, or the aroma of savory food? Mmm, that would be pleasing! That would be welcome hitting us in the face. So it is not that "Karma is a B" all the time, just the times when our karma (deeds) are as awful as offal (tripe, eviscerated waste, poop).

The real meaning of "6-7"
Karma: Take that, Old Man! - Hah, you Ingrate!
Karma works out its results quite impersonally. Y'know how annoying Christians say, "God is not mocked" (Galatians 6:7)? I think they're really, without realizing it, talking about Karma. We don't really get away with things only we know we did. The truth will out, maybe not in this lifetime, and maybe we'll content ourselves to say, "There can't no other lifetimes because I don't believe in that!" but it won't matter.

  • Hey, don't c u comin up with a better explanation
    Remember that slightly stoopid fad kids had going not long ago, saying "six seven" to everything for no apparent reason? (Thanks, South Park!) Wisdom Quarterly wonders if it wasn't some semi-conscious allusion to Galatians 6:7. It's not like anybody reads the Bible nowadays, and no one consciously remembers. But it gets shoved down our threats and into our heads, so who knows if it didn't sneak in so that when everyone heard "six seven," it did have this meaning: "Do not be deceived. Karma cannot be mocked. We reap (harvest) what we sow (plant)."
F Dad who never cared 'bout me
But, y'know, like, what if you do hate him? It's understandable to be very mad at an American parent, fathers and mothers -- and those super jerks the stepparents, who didn't even give birth to a kid and have to suffer the same things and worse from the troubled kids they adopt. It's not all for nothing, parents. It's no accident we adopt. It's no accident we were born into this society that taught and trained us this way, so that's not going to work as an excuse to get us off the karmic hook. Who would ask us, Yama King of the Dead? Jehovah/Yahweh/Yaldabaoth, the Demiurge? Karma does not work through "court" proceedings. It just does its thing. Without knowing it, we are carrying around the seeds of it right now so that wherever we go, there we are. And wherever we go, karma is already there. Karma is the builder, the creator, the producer of our states and traits, our vipaka and phala (karmic resultants and fruits).

The Other F Word: Punk Doc
So what's a person to do? What action (karma) would produce merit? One should ask, "Hey, if I hate my Dad and am going to get into a world of karmic consequences for ignoring or mistreating him, what should I do?" That would be a great question to ask the Buddha, the Awakened One. If one is lucky enough to seek guidance from the Buddha, the Dharma, or the [Noble = Enlightened] Sangha, that will be a very good question. And here's what they would say:

Cultivate metta. Cultivate all four of the Divine Abidings. It will be for YOUR good for a long, long time. Seeing as how we've been cultivating terrible qualities -- whether we learned them from our parents or not -- this would be a great way to go against the stream that pull us down. We could RISE ABOVE (all the BS and family problems we were born into) and go up!


There's a better way to respond to life?
The lotus bud figured this out long ago. Ever notice where the most beautiful and fragrant lotus flowers grow? That's right -- in the mud and mire, the filth and pollution. They love it, accept it, transform it into the most beautiful things. Come to think of it, all the best tasting food grows on dirt, mud, soil, and fertilizer. Fertilizer?! That's made of dung 💩🐽🤭, isn't it?


Who Ordered This...Dung?
So Western Theravada monk Ajahn Brahm wrote that book making this point: If a dump truck pulls up in front of your house and drops a massive load, what should you do? B*tch and complain, tell everybody how unfair it is that this happened to you, take revenge, start throwing it at everyone like a monkey in a zoo would?

Or might it be a better idea to take it around back to the garden, dig it into the ground, and get the most beautiful flowers and vegetables and fruits from its transformation? Bury it. Let it do good. You'll be thanking that dump truck driver in the end, if you follow this enlightened advice.


When I was a kid, I had a cousin of around the same age. My Dad was a drunk, his father was a religious nut. We'd come home from school and call each other. During those phone calls, I would tell him the latest insanity my dad displayed, and he would tell me what his pops (my uncle) was up to. Before long, it became a contest. "Hah, my dad's a bigger a-hole than your dad!"

Homer, your son says you're a bad father to him.
"Oh yeah, well, let me tell you what he was up to today." And we would flabbergast each other with the ghastly things those fathers of ours had done. Sometimes he won, but most of the time, no one could touch my dad for sheer awfulness, depravity, drunkenness, and vulgarity, to say nothing of the threats, punishments, and always having me be in some kind of trouble or restriction. I fought back. My cousin was smarter and kept his head down, "Yes, Dad," that way he avoided trouble. We eventually called it a draw and my belief that if only he didn't drink, my dad would be all right. His dad never drank and was this much of an a-hole? Hah! What's a growing boy to do? I did what, it seems, few other boys do.

I didn't drink, and I didn't believe in my parents' religion. No way, what hypocrisy! The whole idea of a "father" in the sky was enough for me to say, "F the Patriarchy!" Very punk rock, very crossover, very thrash, very heavy metal, very extreme and alternative. But what's a boy to do, having given up that cultural inheritance? Look for a new, a better one, something I chose rather than was born into (on account of karma).

I eventually loved my dad. I always loved him. I didn't think I didn't love him. I just hated him on top of that. So I stopped that extra layer, stopped ruminating on all the negative things he did. Why/how? I learned Buddhism and Eightfold Yoga.


Buddha Yoga (Wm. Bodri)
I rejected Western materialism and sought answers in the East, where I always suspected they were, just like so many before me, from Siddhartha to Jews of all eras like Jesus, who was more likely an Essene, Gnostic, Buddhist monk at Hemis Gompa in Ladakh, a student of Vedic Brahmanism, and not much of a "Jew," as the Ashkenazi of today would have the West believe).

There's more we can do to love our dads and moms (or at least not hate them) than the Four Divine Abidings. That's why it's invaluable (so valuable that a price cannot be put on it) to have learned and practiced "meditation." What is this English word we call "meditation"? It is cultivation (like dung in the garden or farm), self-improvement, development (bhavana), literally "bringing into being" what we want, like to not be so mad, angry, resentful, and ingrateful.

If we cultivate the opposite of these four, what would we be like? We could be sane, here and now under these circumstance; we could be more loving, joyful, and grateful -- FULL of gratitude not only for our parents, such as they were, but for all the other people who sort of "parented" us when our parents weren't always up to the task: teachers, family, friends, acquaintances, pure strangers, enemies even. There's a very beautiful saying in Hinduism that really helped me when I reflected on it to not be resentful of the harm people do us, with or without knowing how much harm they're doing:

The sandalwood tree sprinkles perfume on the axe that lays it low.

I once opened a fortune cookie at a Chinese restaurant. Who knows why, it's not like I ate those cookies or believed in the mass printed fortunes in them, and I found a treasure. This ancient wisdom of the East:

The wise person learns more from the fool
than the fool ever learns from the wise.
The Other F Word: punk rock doc on the payback of Fatherhood
The Other F Word: Flea and daughter Clara, deleted scene (Oscilloscope Laboratories)

CLUB LADIEZ
(CLUB LADIEZThe Other F Word is an American documentary film directed by independent filmmaker Andrea Blaugrund Nevins. It explores the world of aging punk rock musicians as they transition into being parents and try to maintain the contrast between their anti-authoritarian lifestyle/pose with the responsibilities of Fatherhood, the titular "other F word." In addition to interviewing over 20 musicians [1] from across the spectrum of the genre -- including Jim Lindberg of Pennywise, Mark Hoppus of Blink 182, and Fat Mike of NOFX -- the film also includes other emblematic figures of the punk subculture such as professional skateboarder Tony Hawk, in a chronicle of the struggles and rewards that accompany raising children. It was released in the U.S. by Oscilloscope Laboratories in 2011. More

D.R.I: Birth of the Imbeciles
  • Falsettos (Trafalgar/Lucie Svodobova); MisterQuigley; D.R.I./Dirty Rotten Imbeciles; Angry Samoans; Oscilloscope Labs The Other F Word (free on YouTube); Dhr. Seven, Sheldon S., Seth Auberon, Pfc. Sandoval (eds.), Wisdom Quarterly

Monday, May 25, 2026

The real truth about women: Schopenhauer

(The Selves) The real truth about women: Schopenhauer

C'mon, Arty, you don't mean it! Come hug me.
Arthur Schopenhauer (Feb. 22, 1788–Sept. 21, 1860) was a German philosopher and writer known for his 1818 work The World as Will and Representation (Die Welt als Wille und Vorstellung), which was expanded in 1844.

It characterizes the phenomenal world as the manifestation of a blind and irrational noumenal will [11, 12, 13].

I'll get him, girl. Watch me
Building on the transcendental idealism of Immanuel Kant, Schopenhauer developed an atheistic metaphysical and ethical system that rejected the contemporaneous ideas of German idealism [8, 9].

Schopenhauer was among the first philosophers in the Western tradition to share and affirm significant tenets of Indian philosophy, such as asceticism, denial of the self, and the notion of the world-as-appearance [14], as an ILLUSION the Buddha and other Dharmic teachers called Maya. More

Sunday, May 17, 2026

Gay pervert or eunuch? What's a pandaka?


As is well known, the Pali term pandaka has two different meanings. The first is "eunuch." This meaning is not in doubt.
  • Italian militant, Second Italo-Ethiopian War
    [Though what most individuals in the West imagine a eunuch is may well be in doubt since it has more to do with testicles and testosterone production than the presence or absence of a penis after castration, which most think means "penis removal." Removal of the male gonads or testes, such as in the case of Italian Catholic castratoswill produce a "eunuch" with an intact penis but not a means of producing adequate male hormones.]
  • [What are testosteronesteroid hormones, and synthetic steroids? They are androgenic or masculinizing compounds, present and important in the development and of both males and females, is what makes a person "virile" (Pali viriya "energetic, effortful, industrious, heroic"). Although androgens are commonly thought of only as male sex hormones, females also have them, but at lower levels: They function in libido and sexual arousal. Androgens are the precursors to estrogens in all humans.]
  • [My Old Man's a Fatso: Hey, Dad, get TestoGreens Max! But it's his aromatase. Where's his saw palmetto extract?]
Castration as punishment, 16th century
Indeed, related terms are found in several Indo-Aryan languages (cf. Turner 1966;435, no. 7717, panda- [m.] "a eunuch, weakling"; Monier-Williams 1899:580; Childers 1875;328):

Sanskrit: panda-h (m.) "a eunuch, weakling"; pandaka-h (m.) "a eunuch, weakling"; pandaga-h (m.) (probably) "a eunuch, weakling"; pandra-h (m.) "a eunuch, impotent man"; pandraka-h (m.) "a eunuch, impotent man."

Pali: pandaka- (m.) "a eunuch, weakling"; pandika (f.).

Prakrit: pamda-, pamdaga-, pamdaya (m.) "a eunuch, weakling."

The Indo-Aryan terms are usually taken to be loanwords from Dravidian (cf. Mayrhofer 1956-1980.II:196; Burrow 1973:384):

Tamil pen "woman," pentu "woman, wife," pentan, pentakan, pentakam, "hermaphrodite, eunuch," pennan "effeminate man," peti "hermaphrodite";

Malayalam pen "a female, especially a female child, girl," pennan "effeminate'';

Kannada pen, pennu, penda "female, woman," pentana "state of being a female, feminine character or behavior";

Telugu penti "woman," pedi "eunuch"; etc. (cf. Burrow-Emeneau 1984:388, no. 4395).

Second definition

That there is a second meaning is also not in dispute. However, what, exactly, that meaning is has been the source of controversy.

According to one interpretation, the second meaning of pandak is "male homosexual." This cannot possibly be correct and is based upon a critical misinterpretation of a key [Theravada Buddhist] text, namely, the story about a pandaka who was ordained as a [Buddhist monk or] Bhikkhu [1] and who, overcome by sexual desire, went around trying to persuade other Bhikkhus and lay persons to sodomize him.
  • [Indonesian Orang Pendek means "short person" or "little man," a kind of cryptid Bigfoot creature or bipedal primate from the remote, forested mountains of the island of Sumatra.]
After several lay persons did so, the Sangha [2] was criticized for allowing such a person to be ordained as a Bhikkhu.

When this came to the Buddha's attention, He forbade pandakas from being ordained and ordered the pandaka in question to be expelled from the Sangha. [He also set up a rule not to ordain pandakas in the future and that if someone had already been ordained and was found to be a pandaka, that person was to be immediately expelled. See Buddhism, Sexuality, and Gender edited by UCSB Prof. José Ignacio Cabezón for more details on this incident.]

As noted by Kelvin Wong (2005), it is clear from the Pali Tipitaka [3] that the Buddha was aware of the difference between eunuchs, hermaphrodites, and homosexuals.


FOOTNOTES
1. A Buddhist Monk. A Buddhist Nun is called "Bhikkhuni."
2. The Buddhist Monastic Order.
3. The canonical scriptures of Theravadin Buddhism, preserved in the Middle Indo-Aryan language now known as "Pali," the original meaning of which was simply "text." These scriptures are divided into three-"baskets" (ti-pitaka): (1) the disciplinary rules for Monks and Nuns (Vinaya Pitaka); (2) the discourses of the Buddha and several of His chief disciples (Sutta Pitaka); and (3) the "higher doctrine" (Abhidhamma Pitaka) [or the Dharma explained in ultimate terms].

Monday, January 19, 2026

Sex with 'Deadpool Killer' Wade Wilson?

I gotta gets me some MANgione before he gets on Death Row with Wade Wilson.

'Deadpool Killer' Wade Wilson's disturbing X-rated prison calls revealed in new documentary
Disturbing X-rated prison calls revealed in new documentary
All is forgiven, even double murder
A string of American women has reportedly been keeping the double murderer company over the phone while he sits on Death Row.

Double murderer Wade Wilson has reportedly been enjoying sordid sexual conversations from prison with an array of female admirers.
 
The 31-year-old, who was dubbed the "Deadpool Killer" as he shares a name with Ryan Reynolds' popular Marvel character (in the Deadpool series), is currently on Death Row in Florida.

Trauma drama? Ick! No thank you! I just want to get famous on Drops of God.
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Wade Wilson with Nazi swastika on face
He's not been short of company while behind bars at the Union Correctional Institution, according to reports. A new documentary titled Handsome Devil: Charming Killer is said to include a host of shocking footage and recordings featuring Wilson flirting with various women.

The three-part series, which premiered on Paramount+ on Tuesday (January 20, 2026), includes snippets of the prison phone calls he has shared with females, some of whom who he refers to as his "girlfriend."

Wilson reportedly discussed impregnating one admirer [with his wand] and "sinking his fangs" into another, among other bizarre statements.

Olivia Burke
The killer's X-rated prison calls with female admirers are featured in the documentary (CBS/Paramount+). More

COMMENTARY
Why would a woman fall in "love" (or even lust) with a murderer who has killed more than one female like herself? Why would a woman want a man in prison, out of touch and sunk in a hellish world of rapist homosexual men, violent guards, and dreary demons? Who would be attracted to that? Whoever it is, she has to question herself at least a little. We allow it. We even allow conjugal visits, but who finds this alluring, preferable to men on the outside, preferable to "boring" non-murderers? Well, Valentine's Day is approaching, and some can imagine Nothing Higher to Live For: Romantic Love.

Wednesday, September 24, 2025

'The Golden Bachelor' returns (9/24)

Former NFL player Mel Owens is the new Golden Bachelor | GMA
In our desperate search for love and fulfillment, some even go lesbian like author of Eat Pray Love Elizabeth Gilbert, who suffers from clinging (upadana) and severe intimacy/sex issues.
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They made me make chemicals in my heart!
(Good Morning America) Former NFL player Mel Owens named "The Golden Bachelor" for Season 2. The hit show has been renewed for a brand-new season on ABC and Hulu, with Owens taking on the role of leading man, Disney announced at Hulu's inaugural Get Real House event on Tuesday. According to a press release, Owens is a 66-year-old Detroit native from a "close-knit Midwestern family." He attended the University of Michigan and was drafted by the Los Angeles Rams as the ninth pick in the 1981 NFL Draft. Read more: goodmorningamerica.com/cu...

The Golden Bachelor, Season 2: Meet the women
(Bachelor Nation on ABC) Sept. 4, 2025: #TheGoldenBachelor Going gold, going bold. [Getting old, getting sold...down the river to increase ratings as so many of us in our Golden Years still yearn and seek for The One.] Meet the INCREDIBLE women of #TheGoldenBachelor Season 2, premiering Sept. 24, 2025, on Disney's ABC. Stream it on Hulu.

Thursday, August 7, 2025

How Elvis Presley 'destroyed' his enemy

What is stronger, expressing anger and irritation or forgiving and showing forbearance?

Q: What is the best way to destroy an enemy? A: Make that person a friend.
  • Most of us imagine that an "enemy" is someone we hate when, in fact, it more applies to anyone who hates us. Though they hate and attack, we need not give tit for tat. We can be like the sandalwood tree, which sprinkles perfume even on the axe that lays it low: Positive Response: How to Meet Evil with Good
The King as Fat Happy Budai
The act of metta ("lovingkindness") is what is best translated as "friendliness." Imagine the whole universe and every being in it as a friend on whom kindness is bestowed. There is no adversary. There are only friends and supporters. The Buddha said this is how some Gods (brahmas) abide, steeped in thoughts/feelings of boundless lovingkindness (agape, universal friendliness, unbounded love, and compassionate connection).

Who was the great entertainer Elvis Presley, the King of Rock 'n Roll, to commit such a public act of love and compassion? Would Johnny Cash, who had a great deal of love and acceptance of the most marginalized members of our society, approve? "Folsom Prison Blues" suggests he would.