|I'm not an alcoholic. I'm a drunk. Alcoholics go to meetings.|
I have to honestly assess my motives, which are to stay out of trouble and excuse my behavior and poor choices at so many turns in my life.
This Way Out
Fortunately, the Buddha doesn't give up on people, not on any people. There was never anyone so bad, so utterly worthless (not Angulimala the serial killer, whom the Buddha saw such potential in that he helped him gain enlightenment -- and as bad as I've been, I was never a serial killer, not Mara Namuci, "Mara the Evil One," not Devadatta, the Buddhist Judas-figure, that the Buddha had no time for them.
Mara was the worst, the supernatural opponent. Ven. Devadatta was a close relative, the brother of Yasodhara (Siddhartha's wife and mother of their son, Rahula, both of whom also became monastics).
Like the Judas of legend, he betrayed his teacher. But Devadatta was far worse than the maligned and misunderstood Judas Iscariot because he himself attempted to kill the Buddha and succeeded in injuring him, an intention and act so heinous that it is classified among the Five Heinous Actions with immediate result (anantarika karma); it is irretrievable and necessarily leads to a tormenting rebirth in an abysmal-and-indeterminate-but-not-eternal hell immediately after this life.
- Even the Jewish-Christian Devil, as horrible and hated as he is in biblical and European lore, may not be so bad: History of the Devil
|Searching, questioning, rebelling: punk rock, like Buddhism, went against the stream|
|Frieda Kahlo (Heidi/imgfave.com)|
|What? I'm not dead. I drink to not feel.|