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| Touch me now. It doesn't matter. I've got breast armor. I'm failed pop idol Catty Purry Brand. |
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| I wish, I wish I were Daisy from Great Gatsby |
It seemed to begin when I was a kid in middle school. I couldn't wait to get to the ninth grade so I could be all grown up like the seniors. They had mustaches, cars, and girls fawning all over them. But a strange thing happened, and I saw and noticed it in slow motion. Neither I nor my classmates were ever getting any older. We were the same people being promoted through the grades. The older kids left school never to be seen again, so there was no direct comparison. But in my I remember thinking that by the 9th grade, there was no real noticeable change. Sure, there was progression. We didn't freeze in time. What I mean is, we didn't become them. The 7th graders did NOT grow up to look like the 9th graders of our youth. What was going on? It might all be perspective, but everyone began to notice.
Japanese pederast gave us K-Pop looks (hormones)
San Fran pedophile whitewashed faces gave us it.
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When we were kids, all the "kids" on TV were actually adults in the role of children. So if we saw ourselves in them, we were deceived. Just think of Dawson's Creek, Romeo + Juliet (with Leonardo DiCaprio and Claire Danes), My So-Called Life with Jared Leto, Strangers with Candy (the only honest show, featuring young Old Lady Amy Sedaris and young sparkly gay couple Paul Dinello and Stephen Colbert (the gay version), MTV shows like Undressed (a sexy adult soap opera for tweens), Saved by the Bell (with sexpot Tiffani [Amber] Thiessen), to say nothing of my favorite show.
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There was also Once Upon a Time in Hollywood with breakout superstars Julia Butters, Margaret Qualley, and a virtually unknown bleach blonde with Barbie tendencies and a taste for extreme metal, I think going by the name Margot Robbie.
Now we're all dying, and we're not even rich, famous, or part of the Hollywood (Illuminati) elite.
It's almost as if the Buddha were right:
- All things are hurtling toward destruction (radically impermanent),
- unable to satisfy or ever fulfill us (disappointing), and
- utterly impersonal (not self).
These are called the Three Characteristics of All Conditioned Phenomena. We are conditioned phenomena (mind-body nama-rupa psycho-physical, well, not so much "entities" as "trans-i-ties."
It is (as impossible as it will ever actually be to believe but actually possible to see) utterly impersonal. This is why Buddhism is not a faith.
- CAN YOU PLEASE EXPLAIN THIS "NOT SELF" BUSINESS? IT SEEMS LIKE A JOKE. - Yes. It is possible to explain with an analogy. Let's say I say, "There's no such thing as a 'car.'" Then pointing you'll say, "You're crazy. It's right there! They're everywhere. Cased closed!"
- But I'll say, "I didn't say there isn't anything that looks like a 'car.' The illusion exists, and it's quite useful to designate assemblages of things and cling to them as real entities, but the fact is -- in an ultimate sense -- there is no such thing as a car. You might ask, "What is there then?"
- To that I will point to all the parts that, when put together, give the illusion of a new thing coming into existence. It sure seems to come into existence. It can do things the parts couldn't, and conventionally speaking, it is new to existence. But it never really makes it. It is unreal, an illusion.
- "What's the proof?" you say.
- I say, "Let's take it apart and find it." We proceed to disassemble the whole assemblage, and when we come to the last two pieces and separate them, do you think a 'car' will fall out?
- No, it was never like that!
- Exactly! And what was it like? Let's say a car is composed of 5,000 pieces but really only needs five (5): wheels, frame, motor, steering wheel, and brake. Is there a 'car' in there, or do these exist independently?
- They exist independently. We don't need those particular pieces. Any set of wheels, frame, motor, steering device, and brake will do.
- Do you see? The 'car' does not come into being and, of course, never goes out of being, in an ultimate sense. An illusion arises, and an illusion goes away, and this "illusion" is a convenient descriptor of that assemblage.
- I don't get it.
- Let's make it easier. Fire does not exist.
- That's easier?
- Yeah, because now you can point and say, "You're crazy. That's it right there. There's fire everywhere. Case closed!"
- I will then counter by pointing out that what we call "fire," what we regard as real and existing and being "fire," is actually an illusion that arises utterly dependent on five factors.
- What five? It is just one thing, a fundamental element!
- Not at all. The five (and there can be more, but let's keep it to five fundamental ingredients which, when present, reliably give the persistent illusion of fire): fuel, heat, oxygen, wick, and the mysterious process-of-combustion. (We can go on and on analyzing "fire" into parts, but the one thing that is sure is that it is all parts, not a compact thing in itself).
- How do we know that?
- We know that because when present, Bam! The illusion arises. When any is missing, the illusion goes away. Put the five together (in a functionally coordinated way) and there it is, "fire." Take any way, and where has it gone? Where does fire go when it goes out?
- Up? No, I don't know, into oblivion?
- Does it wait in oblivion to come back? Because, let's say we remove oxygen, it will go right out. Add the oxygen back, and it will roar back. Where was it in the meantime?
- It was not anywhere. It does not actually "go" out. It becomes unmanifested.
- It becomes nonexistent, except it doesn't really come into and go out of existence either. It just seems to. Why? Because it is conditionally originated, that is, dependently originated. When this is, that comes to be. When that is not, it does not come to be.
- Oh, I kinda get it. I don't believe it! I think people, and fire, and cars are real. Real REAL.
- Can you begin to see, however, how and why someone might say they're unreal?
- Not really. That's crazy.
- It's crazy to our conventional way of worrying and needing to cling to illusions. But let's say we wanted to be free of illusions, then wouldn't it be great to disillusion ourselves?
- Disillusion?
- Awaken, enlighten, clearly see what's really there?
- Well, yeah, sure if we could be sure that that really is the Truth.
- We can. The Buddha saw it, pointed to it, and invited us to come and see, to clearly see the Truth, not to believe him or anyone else. We with our own purified and intensified eyes, heart, mind could come and see. Where is the car before the parts-of-a-car are assembled?
- It isn't anywhere.
- Where will it go when disassembled again?
- It won't "go" anywhere.
- Now you're getting it! It doesn't come or go because it was never really what it seemed to be. Illusion arises, that's for sure, and the illusion of the loss of it, that, too, is sure. But it isn't reality.
- Why would anybody talk like this?
- One (such as the Awakened One, the historical Buddha) would talk like this because we are clinging to pain (suffering, distress, disappointment) and the unreal. He wanted to move us to reality, and that means waking up to what's REALLY there and what's been there all along.
- What's that?
- Self and not-self.
- Aha! So there is a self?
- Yes, conventionally speaking. But ultimately speaking, no. There is no self.
- You're crazy. It's right there. I'm pointing at it. Case closed.
- And what are you pointing at?
- At you, Dummy! I can also point to myself, Smarty.
- Good, good. I say you're pointing at a body.
- Well, sure, but within that body there's a soul, and that's the self!
- Good, very good. The body is an illusion; you can see that much. Now let me disassemble the soul/self you're sure is in there. What are the components of "self"?
- There are no components! It's a highly mysterious fusiform whale carcass thingy with feelings.
- Ha ha ha. There is a body; that's one thing, but it is no thing. It is components. We can disassemble, reassemble, add, subtract, but still it's just a functional assemblage of parts. The "self" is partly that and partly four other things.
- Things? What things?
- Invisible things -- feelings, perceptions, mental formations, and a mysterious process we call consciousness. Whatever else we want to add to "self," it is at least these fundamental five things, these Five Aggregates clung to as "self."
- Oh. I think I'm starting to see. You're not crazy, but you're speaking dangerously. Aren't you afraid you're going to vanish in a puff of unsmoke for talking like this?
- What would vanish, the illusion? I'd be glad to get rid of it. It has cause incalculable misery (dukkha) and disappointment, chasing after things for it, never being able to satisfy or fulfill it. Ah, to be free!
- Free of "self"?
- No, free of the persistent illusion of "self" traveling and rearising life after life in this samsara, this Wheel of Rebirth, of Life and Death, of endless suffering (unsatisfactoriness)!
- Yeah, I guess that would be good, but what about taking rebirth in a permanent heaven and having a good time all the time till the end of time?
- Nice alternative, but it doesn't exist. The longest most enduring heavens all come to an end eventually. It may take a great aeon (maha-kalpa), but beings (dynamic becomings) fall away to continue on according to their just desserts which we call karma. And because of greed, hatred, and delusion (lust, aversion, and ignorance), our many unskillful deeds in pursuit of things will yield many painful results for a long, long time. It would be far better to awaken to the Truth.
- Well, I won't argue with that. But who can say what the "Truth" is?
- The Awakened One, the Buddha, and those enlightened ones who have awakened by practicing the Teaching (the Dharma) of the Awakened One(s).
Faith (saddha, confidence, truth, conviction) is useful but not nearly as important as a shamanistic attitude to actually come see the Buddha's Teaching, investigate it, and confirm it. It won't liberate us because it's true; it will liberate us because we PRACTICED whether or not we "believed" (had faith) in advance. Better to doubt and question AND practice than to completely "believe" and not practice.
- Modern Buddhists try to explain this away by various analogies, many of which amount to Hinduism with different gods and bodhisattvas. It's actually very easy to grasp intellectually and not be confused, almost impossible to accept, as if by accepting we would instantly disappear in a puff of unsmoke (as in The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy). We will not. The habitual tendency or "conceit" (māna) to conceive, think, and speak in terms of I-and-other is very strong and not easily wiped away, but actually wiping it away is key to awakening from illusion and clinging and suffering. It is the missing key to enlightenment.
- Even Mahayana, which often speaks like a school of Hinduism, could understand this if it only paid attention to its most prized and popular discourse, the Heart Sutra. It's not about love, feelings, and emotions; it's about getting to the heart of wisdom through the perfection of wisdom.
- What is there if not a self/soul? - There are Five Aggregates clung to as self. - Who clings?! - The aggregates, steeped in ignorance, cling and have aversion/fear. Released from the illusion (disillusioned), there is freedom and realization that the ultimate Truth was always true. - How does [the illusion of] self arise? - It comes about through Dependent Origination.
- Talking about "Emptiness" (Śūnyatā) and "Suchness" (Tathātā) obscures the fact that what the Five Aggregates clung to as self are devoid of is an abiding, enduring HEART, core, essence. Conditioned things do not last even one moment because in the sub-moments there is arising, turning, and falling away. This is true at a submicroscopic level of atoms (kalapas) and mind-moments (cittas), mind and body, name and form.
- All that is "self" bears the Three Marks of Existence mentioned above.
- And this is great news because to really see it, even for a moment, transforms the heart/mind, releases us from illusion, as we are able to effortlessly let go of clinging and be free through the perfection of wisdom, the direct experience of the Truth.
- This does not happen by accident. It happens by higher training.
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